"Last Hope"
California just got put on lockdown, possibly the mobile national guard, and all. No one knows what "and all" means at this point. It really could be the end of the world. It seems like a plague God has bestowed upon us. No, not necessarily him, but that it is simply the end times. I'm blessed beyond belief to get paid during this time. What am I doing? No one is going to read this. I am still worried about what other people think! Why do you care? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? I've always wanted to play piano or any instrument. The knowledge on how to play something - to make noise - beautiful noise at any moment. What an art! Except, I love tangible things like fibers, pieces, papers, things that I can touch and feel. I feel like this is creed thoughts blog. Fuck. I want to find myself so badly...to know who I am and be proud of it! That journey is so difficult and exhausting. It's like I've been treading water for the past two years. I live...